Tuesday, November 27, 2007

A little Reminder

Good Afternoon to all who are still tuned in to the Baby Cate blog. I wanted to remind everyone that tomorrow is Baby Cate's first Cardiologist Appointment. And to ask all who have loved her this far in prayer, that you would continue to pray for her and that everything goes well tomorrow. Our hope is, well for a complete miraculous healing, but will gladly accept that she is growing well, her heart is continuing to balance itself out and that she is gaining weight. As I look at that little girl with those big blue eyes looking up trying to figure out what that blurry blob is in front of her, I can't help but wonder, as any concerned parent does or would, is she going to be alright? It is not a matter of having faith, but just the human element of life, the experience of fear, concern, and the genuine desire for the well being of our little girl. On the outside, there appears to be nothing wrong, she eats well, she looks pink and beautiful, she sleeps, poops, and cries just like any other baby. It’s just the mental fact that we know something is not "normal" that causes me to look at EVERY little thing she does and ask, Is she ok? should she be breathing like that? Why did her Eyes get big like that? She only at 2 ounces and not 3. That was a BIG poop, is that normal, are you tired now? So many questions and concerns fill my big ole head, things that I NEVER paid attention to with my other two children, but now I feel the need to watch her like she is on the verge of flat lining at any second, which she is not, so take a deep breath. Take a deep breath, that's it, that is what I and we all, must do as we are faced with situations like this or one you might be facing right now. I don't want to be some freakishly overly protective parent, I feel bad enough that I am the wash your hands police, when people come to my house. I don't want Baby Cate to grow up thinking she is breakable, I want her to grow up strong, determined, and unafraid. Unafraid of obstacles and challenges that life throws in our path, notice I said life, not God, I don't believe that God gave Cate this heart condition, it just happens. I want her to eat dog poop like her brother, I want her take off her clothes and play rain puddles, I want her to run around the back yard singing songs to people who no one else sees, except her and have cool names like schocakan. But it all must start with Taking a Breath, not being such a worry wort, but just letting her be. She will learn how to face life from me and her mom. I want to teach her that with God’s grace we can face anything, we peace and true joy. I want her to know that she is not in anyway an underdog or weak, but even more to instill in her that she has fought valiantly since the day she was born. To be honest with or without a heart condition if she survives our house, and by house I mainly mean, her older brother and sister, she will be FINE! So, as we prepare for her first Cardiologist Appointment tomorrow at 2:30, please pray for her, and for her mom and dad, that we can relax, let her be the beautiful baby that God has created her to be, and to know, one day, she will eat dog poop, and be a better kid for it. I will update yall after the appointment tomorrow. Until next time, don't forget to breath.

5 comments:

Tara said...

I am praying.

Anonymous said...

We will all be praying, Charlie...you can count on it. Tommy is meeting with his Jr. Youth Group tonight and I will remind him to get the young children to pray for Cate tonight, as well.

You know Charlie, we've been fortunate...we've never ever had to experience something like what you and Ali are going through - so I don't know exactly what you are feeling right now. But I do know that worry and anxiety can absolutely immobilize you if you let it. Just know that God's got you and as hard as it may be to completely "let go"....rest assured that He's holding tight. Sometimes the fear can hold you so tightly that you can't even pray for yourself...that's when you ask others to do it "for" you. Please know that you have so many people praying for you and for that precious little baby. I do know that is the most "powerful" thing, we, as friends, can do for your family. We love you all. My STM Prayer Chain has been praying and I will send out an email tonight asking them to pray especially hard tomorrow for Cate and for a positive visit with her doctor.

May God grant you all a peaceful night tonight and bless you tomorrow with a trust in Him so powerful that you can't help but feel the calm.

Please keep us updated on the blog. In the meantime, I am lifting you all up in prayer in a special way at this very moment.

Jane W

Anonymous said...

charlie..we will definitely be praying!! for her sweet heart, but also that she DOESN'T EVER EVER EVER EAT DOG POOP!! Lets trust in God that she won't!! Hahaha! Funny thing is that my little cousin did, and then he liked it...um that is supposed to be one of those "well, they'll learn and never do it again" things and he searched for poop piles...nastiness!!!! Keep us updated and know that miracles have already happened and will continue to...but i know what you mean about worrying...i remember losing moriah at 33 weeks and thinking "how am i supposed to be pregnant again and get to 33 weeks without being all paranoid" and God walked right by my side...this time around too as we get nearer to that landmark..he reminds me to breath and be still and know that he is god!!

love you
ben, maria, and girls!

Anonymous said...

hey, so how did the appt go?

Anonymous said...

hey, so how did the appt go?