Tuesday, November 27, 2007
A little Reminder
Good Afternoon to all who are still tuned in to the Baby Cate blog. I wanted to remind everyone that tomorrow is Baby Cate's first Cardiologist Appointment. And to ask all who have loved her this far in prayer, that you would continue to pray for her and that everything goes well tomorrow. Our hope is, well for a complete miraculous healing, but will gladly accept that she is growing well, her heart is continuing to balance itself out and that she is gaining weight. As I look at that little girl with those big blue eyes looking up trying to figure out what that blurry blob is in front of her, I can't help but wonder, as any concerned parent does or would, is she going to be alright? It is not a matter of having faith, but just the human element of life, the experience of fear, concern, and the genuine desire for the well being of our little girl. On the outside, there appears to be nothing wrong, she eats well, she looks pink and beautiful, she sleeps, poops, and cries just like any other baby. It’s just the mental fact that we know something is not "normal" that causes me to look at EVERY little thing she does and ask, Is she ok? should she be breathing like that? Why did her Eyes get big like that? She only at 2 ounces and not 3. That was a BIG poop, is that normal, are you tired now? So many questions and concerns fill my big ole head, things that I NEVER paid attention to with my other two children, but now I feel the need to watch her like she is on the verge of flat lining at any second, which she is not, so take a deep breath. Take a deep breath, that's it, that is what I and we all, must do as we are faced with situations like this or one you might be facing right now. I don't want to be some freakishly overly protective parent, I feel bad enough that I am the wash your hands police, when people come to my house. I don't want Baby Cate to grow up thinking she is breakable, I want her to grow up strong, determined, and unafraid. Unafraid of obstacles and challenges that life throws in our path, notice I said life, not God, I don't believe that God gave Cate this heart condition, it just happens. I want her to eat dog poop like her brother, I want her take off her clothes and play rain puddles, I want her to run around the back yard singing songs to people who no one else sees, except her and have cool names like schocakan. But it all must start with Taking a Breath, not being such a worry wort, but just letting her be. She will learn how to face life from me and her mom. I want to teach her that with God’s grace we can face anything, we peace and true joy. I want her to know that she is not in anyway an underdog or weak, but even more to instill in her that she has fought valiantly since the day she was born. To be honest with or without a heart condition if she survives our house, and by house I mainly mean, her older brother and sister, she will be FINE! So, as we prepare for her first Cardiologist Appointment tomorrow at 2:30, please pray for her, and for her mom and dad, that we can relax, let her be the beautiful baby that God has created her to be, and to know, one day, she will eat dog poop, and be a better kid for it. I will update yall after the appointment tomorrow. Until next time, don't forget to breath.